Living Arrangements

Yeah, it's hard to take those setbacks. I'm stronger than I think I am. I hate abandoning my room mate. It makes my guts twist every time I think of that place. I get my hopes up, and then they get dashed. Up and down, that's my life. Maybe I could beat up on myself for being so full of self pity. Hey, I had a blast. I never had to clean up a town before. Just because it didn't come to anything doesn't mean it wasn't fun. It was worth a try. Now I gotta move on. I have to choke down all that disappointment and keep on truckin'. It's just another day in paradise.

letter to Sacramento's "Street Roots"

I recently went to work here volunteering at the free dining facility on Third in Eureka. I have run across your paper looking for information on free camping for the homeless. We could get similar papers from other markets and open a homeless news stand. This would be a way to gain visibility for the homeless problem. And whoever is going to fight us on this and everything else because we all know " You can't do anything for these people" might as well start here. There is a small square in the bohemian part of town where they offer carriage rides and during the day an attractive young lady sets up some small tables of jewelry similar to the way they do it on Telegraph Avenue in Berkekey.

Word oricessing for fun and profit. All the content. I got it all right here in this bag. I'm sick with envy. Everything that I always wsanted belongs to someone else So here I am.Look at me. I'm somebody. I've been told otherwise. Poor me, por, por pitiful me. Where's my muse? Who thought this was going to be a good idea? It'd be nice if nthis would all turn out well like in afairy tale. Honey surgar babt's the end t'y. Personallyh I hate people. I just hate 'em. I guess I love them and hate them at the same time, big surprise. There are ;actually two sides to s particular issue. Do we see both sides now? I hate you. Don't leave me. Wonmen who love men who hate them. Why does the world keep on turning? Don't they know it ended the day you said good bye.
Joy and Sadness rule the world
Giving in to the powers that be that might be what they seem.

What next, superboy?
Where
s the magic cape? What's next on the agenda?

How about "The Humboldt Handout"

Once again, with Feelin'

Well where am I? I'm taking everything way too personally. I'm being way too judgemental. It's a lot easier to say than it is to do something. Mean people suck. I like getting back at them, but then I'm just being mean too. I like being mean to mean people. I like going to war. If you don't get what you like you need to learn to like what you. I need to feel like I'm in danger of losing everything that I've got which I am. I just feel indignant. How dare people treat me this way! I need a humility pill because I'm special you know. "Look at me. I'm as helpless as a kitten up a tree." And the solution is....... I guess the solution is to realize that I haven't been keeping my head down. I'm going to get it shot off, and be just so much cannon fodder. All the daydreaming I've been doing is about me being a big man. It's fun to do, but it's leaving me with the totally wrong idea. God grant me the serenity.... I need to get back to what I was doing where I was very mistake tolerant. All this high livin' is getting me down

A record of time and place

I'm sitting here at borders. My car is packed. I moved out this morning. I'm going to sneak back at 9:22. It's 7:23 right now. This should have been a you tube video. I need to get a PCS phone with unlimited internet ant where there is cell phone coverage.














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Eventually, Politics

Well, I did it again. Hit the wrong key and lost it all. And it was so good. It's the one that got away. So here I am starting over. I was writing about using this forum to see what was on my mind. Then I remarked about how it was all about me. That's when the boom hit. When I'm out by the river looking up at the rock faces I'm able to see that there is a higher priority than myself. Looking at this computer screen, however, doesn't give me the same feeling. Here I feel the need to describe what is going on with me. To every thing there is a season. There's a problem in determining what is important enough to mention. How can I tell if something is boring or not? I guess this is where editing would come it. Really, I'm trying to self edit before I even write it down. I don't see it working real well. The whole thing strikes me as a losing proposition. So I'm back to doing what I'm really good at, getting down on myself. It's good for filling in the gaps.
Basically I'm using this as a diary. I know I've said that before. Diaries can be so boring. Let's see how fast we can recount the past. I stayed home Saturday thinking that I wanted to see the football playoffs. I didn't, but I do remember having a manic episode where I came up with lots and lots ideas for things to do. If I'm able to accomplish even one I should consider myself as having beat the odds. Yesterday morning I watched Dick Army say how the Arizona shooting was a problem for psychologists not sociologists. Expecting an extreme right winger to do anything but deny any and all responsibility would be like expecting Hitler to have a change of heart. To me it all goes back to Reagan. I realize that the guy did have a first rate temperament, but what really wowed the right was his ability to be downright mean in the slimiest way possible. Homelessness wasn't a problem until Reagan had his way. And he had the ability to say really mean things and get away with it. Now I realize the equation has to be massaged both ways. I also realize the worse a conservative acts the faster real change will come. It's nasty that it has to be that way, but that's the way it is. Then we had Newt Gingrich. Democrats had held the house for forty years, and that just wasn't healthy. You can blame the left for not being aggressive enough and therefore never having to face defeat. You can blame the public for getting strung out on hand outs. You can blame the democrats for handing them out. You can blame the Republicans for refusing to budge to the left and become competitive. I haven't studied it enough to know what other people think. Anyway it became legitimate for Gingrich and the right to get really nasty. The system had lost its balance, and they had a right to have it restored. They were the only ones to come up with a workable plan to do so. Just because it entailed poisoning the public debate didn't make it illegitimate. So the left wing once again has reaped what it sowed. What should have been done I have no idea. It's the world. It is the way it is. You can't change the world. The world is going to be the world. I just think we are really lucky to have Obama. I love this guy. I love everything about him. So that's pretty much the way it is. I've run out of energy, so I'll just stop in the middle of everything. It's my perogative. I can do anything I want. It's my party, and I'll go home when I want to.

To Beat Back Poverty, Pay the Poor - NYTimes.com

To Beat Back Poverty, Pay the Poor - NYTimes.com: "Today, however, Brazil’s level of economic inequality is dropping at a faster rate than that of almost any other country. Between 2003 and 2009, the income of poor Brazilians has grown seven times as much as the income of rich Brazilians. Poverty has fallen during that time from 22 percent of the population to 7 percent.

Contrast this with the United States, where from 1980 to 2005, more than four-fifths of the increase in Americans’ income went to the top 1 percent of earners"