Wednesday, May 18, 2011

► Yesterday by The Beatles | [some of]The Greats | texaslifter | 8tracks

► Yesterday by The Beatles | [some of]The Greats | texaslifter | 8tracks

“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music."

► Cups by Happy Family | Summer | allofyou | 8tracks

► Cups by Happy Family | Summer | allofyou | 8tracks

"Greatness is not measured head to toe; it is measured head to heaven."
"It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are." - e.e. cummings
"Thank God for standardized tests. Otherwise you'd never know who your real friends are." - Daria

► The Opposite of Hallelujah by Jens Lekman | turn that frown upside down | brighterdiscontent | 8tracks

► The Opposite of Hallelujah by Jens Lekman | turn that frown upside down | brighterdiscontent | 8tracks ttp://

The only people for me are the mad ones - the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.

we were young in the summer
songs to sing a lover
most beautiful songs in the world
turn that frown upside down
the best songs you've never heard
going nowhere fast...
love and some verses

Thursday, May 5, 2011


Well, well, well, I'm at the library with no internet access. What's a homeless person to do? I'm not going to let it ruin my mood. There are plenty of other things to do that. Let me count the ways. I know Ive often gotten down on myself in my writings. It just sounds so interesting to me. Yeah, let's get down. Let's tear him limb from limb. Isn't that what you want? Isn't that what I learned at my daddy's knee?
So here I am. I feel so much better. Or do I? Do I care? Moving on. Let's not get boring here. I know. Let's talk about God. God? That's right, God. First of all I don't even know if God exists, and I got really bored even thinking about it about thirty years ago. But let's say God exists. It just works for me. I like to imagine things, and I can't stop myself from doing it. I've done it since I was little. Believing in God just works for me. It's something to think about. I think it's a good influence on me. I'm just now realizing the spiritual component of good mental health. Now, there are some things about believing in God that are not good. A good portion of the evil in the world is done in the name of God. Atheists are made by people who are really bad at convincing people to believe in God. Atheists weren't born atheists. They were made. Someone told them about God. Some how they got the wrong idea. I'm not saying that they're wrong. They might be right. Like I said, "I get bored talking about it." Anyway, people who are really bad at talking about God accomplish just opposite of what they intended.
So what am I? Am I trying to turn people on about God? Am I preaching? Am I getting a little full of myself? Does writing things down tend to do that to me? Being humble is not my strong suit. See? Believing in God helps me with that.
I just like thinking about it. If I think about it it's only natural that I write about it.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

What am I doing here?

Well, Let's see here. I'm writing this on wordpad. I may not be able to it. Also I am doing this in my car for the first time. So that's a double whammy. I really don't know where to start. It's hard for me to tell what's important. There is always that gnawing feeling that you don't have your eye on the ball, and something is going sneak up behind you and bite you in the ass. Yeah, I've been manic. I've got the diminished checking account to prove it. What can I do but move on. I guess I'm struggling to establish priorities. What's important to me? What trips my trigger? I've been using my car too much. I need to walk more. I need to quit buying things - like coffee. What else do I need to do? Quitting smoking might be a start. Getting online banking would be good. Letting my insurance agent know my new address is on the list. Changing my address at the DMV and the Social Security administration would be up there. Then the is the VA. Also I need to apply for medi Cal. Gotta go eat. bye
I like to pretend what's going to happen. Then I have to go back over it like a psychiatrist and analyze what it says about me.